An Easter Walk

Caterpiller Phacelia, Phacelia cicutaria

There came a dove, an Easter dove, 
       When morning stars grew dim;
It fluttered round my lattice bars,
       To chant a matin hymn.

H. Cornelia Ray, 1910

On Easter mornings I find my church in the natural world, its congregation the crowd of living beings that surround me there. Often that means a walk into the woods above my home.

Yesterday, it was a series of wildflower walks in the rain a bit further afield. Goldfields on serpentine slopes, recurved flowers of dutchmen’s pipe vines suspended from branches of live oak trees, spiraling sequences of flowering and decay with caterpillar phacelia growing on warm exposures against rocks. This Easter morning it is up the hill above the house, rain over, ground damp and muddy, forest quiet as I enter, cloudy and overcast. Gradually sun comes out. Cloud shapes move across sky. The Easter bird chorus rises up as I find myself deeper in the woods, near the top of the hill — Spotted Towhee, Steller’s Jay, and Acorn Woodpecker, loud and shrill; beneath it the counterpoint calls of Orange-crowded Warbler, Ruby-crowned Kinglet, Oak Titmouse, Pine Siskin, Lesser Gold Finch, Dark-eyed Junco, Northern Flicker and Robin. This, I think, without really understanding why, is itself resurrection.

Raised knowing this as joy and faith, I now experience it as mystery. God, in the trinitarian sense, is both Depth, Person, and Spirit or Energy. The Father is the foundation, the depth, unknowable, the all and everything. The Son is the presence, the manifestation, the nexus that all reality is able to encounter, know, and be touched by. The Spirit is the movement, the divine energy that animates and connects, passes through us, and joins us with the unknowable depth and with the manifest, the incarnation. To experience God in this sense is to be bound up into this triangular dynamic – depth, person, energy. All of reality is fashioned of this, is marked with the sign of this. It’s proof-text, if you will, is the resurrection.

I love the Eastern Church’s icons of the Anastasis or the resurrection. The Christ, his robes flowing, descends into the depths of death and hell, breaking its doors, removing forever the need for any other key. Death is overcome. With hands outstretched, he lifts us out of death. Standing in the center, haloed by depth and darkness, radiating an energy that connects us to him, sorrow is no more. We are not lost in the pits of perdition. We are raised up with him, made whole, united with him, and joined into the limitless congregation of the eternal.

What then of the birds or the flowers? Is not salvation a human doorway, its doorkeeper an incarnation of the human? Are not the birds, the trees, the flowers, indeed all the rest of creation forbidden entry, without soul or divine spark, mere materiality meant only to decay and pass away? The Spirit tells me otherwise. These bird orations that fill the woods are too plaintive and more real, more real than our human chattering wordiness. The trees, voiceless, have a depth, a presence, that confronts me with their existence, their rootedness in things beyond me. If there is a resurrection, I keep finding it eternally present in all things. The Gospel of Matthew’s judgement parable where Christ enthroned speaks of the unknown Christ not recognized in each moment of the everyday is the Christ I seek to know. In that sense, the broken doors the Christ stands on in the icon stand for the closed doors that lock up one part of reality from the whole. Break down the doors between humans and nature, between privileged and poor, between races, genders, nationalities, religions. Break down the doors. He is risen. He is here. She is the Christ. They are the Christ. That orange-crowned warbler perched on a branch, itself budding out with the energy of spring, it too … is the Christ.

31 March 2024 / Coffeeberry Hill, Sierra Nevada Foothills, 2,800′

Soundscape – Oak Titmouse

Diminutive, unassuming
flitting along branches looking for insects
Drab in its gray
only a small jaunty triangular crown to distinguish it
Its loud call nonetheless draws attention

Returning from the woods this morning
It stops me with a 

Ts-e-e			Ts-e-e
	    twt			     twt


Repetitive, insistent, rapidly sung and more 
percussive than melodic
Three short higher notes followed by one lower

This ‘TSEET’ song as birders call it looks something like this in my recording


Perhaps similar to a recording of much greater fidelity in Cornell’s Macaulay Library


In both spectrograms a kind of sideways T shape
initial repeated notes followed by a raspier single note of multiple pitch 
that comes to the ear more in the downward register.

As a symbol spectogram, something like this:

So it sings, this tiny bird of mighty voice
Calling out to the world
In alarm, in joy, in camaraderie
Perched in its tree, claiming its existence
As clear as the sunlight of morning

14
XI
21

Coffee-berry Hill
Clear morning, days after storm

This

 Gift-wrapping the air
Swirling, light-footed crowd fall
Making me smile —
First Snow.



Fire to Ice
Just yesterday, red flag wildfire warning
Lingring late into November
Unseasonably warm, low humidity, high winds
Power blackouts, evacuations
Spot fires no more than a mile away
Attacked with truck, dozer and airplane
Mega fires further out
Darkened sky smoke plumes.

Then in a day
Temperature drops a full 20 
Snow falls
Five days of it now, five more to come

Seasons askew, weather extreme
New normal in mountain foothills
Schools close, stores sell out of ice
Then batteries, then generators
Cars troll the darkened streets
An apocalypse not of 
Wrath but denial.



Gift-wrapping the air…
However we reform 
And remake you
You are still the mystery
And surprise —
This falling of cold white specks
From an empty sky
This transformation unbroken
From far ocean to mountain storm
To snowpack to spring melt
This float of crystal sculptures
Suspended in air
Enclouding us

I bow
before the mystery
…First snow


30 November 2019
Cedar Wings Cottage, 2680'
Storm-covered sky
Snowflake. Alexey Kljatov CC BY-SA 4.0 (https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/4.0)

Monday, the 25th was a high wind weather warning day, with the possibility of power shutoffs to guard against wildlife caused by electrical wires. The weeks previous saw no less than 7 power shutoff events, lasting 1 to 4 days, along with numerous small fires and a few catastrophic mega fires that burned homes in both northern and southern California. An unusually persistent high-pressure ridge had sat over Northern California, pushing aside any of the usual rain that typically arrives in the Sierra Nevada foothills after October 31st.

Tuesday, the 26, storms finally broke through, bringing a sudden, dramatic drop in temperatures and by afternoon, snow, first as white specks easily mistaken for ash from a fire, then full flakes ‘enclouding’ us in their free-fall. Day five of this arrival of winter finds us with snow still covering the ground except where the snow plows have cleared streets, with two storms around behind us, a third forecast for tomorrow, and generally cold rain or snow forecast for a full week. On the first day after storm we saw the juncos foraging for last morsels on newly fallen snow and out of sympathy put out bird seed, which they finally found – four days later – a troop of 20 dark-eyed juncos gathering in great activity of hopping, pecking, and wheeling flight as they feasted in the cold.